19. Seton Hall University : Class of 2016.
Christian & in love with God.
Chillin' in New Jersey
*Philippians 4:6-7*
Don't be afraid, say hi :)
IG: patrick_mazo
I love her so much. Not because she puts out or because she’s a great kisser, but because she genuinely cares for me & has a beautiful heart.
She’s the one who wants me to be the best I can be & live out my full potential. She’s the one who keeps me straight & walks alongside me as we both seek God. She’s the one who knows what to say to make me smile whenever things are going wrong. She’s the one who I can trust with anything. She is the woman who has my heart.
It’s been awhile since I’ve done one of these, but here goes…
So far the past few weeks has been extremely great for me. I’ve gotten my acceptance to Seton Hall University for the school of nursing. That was the most joyful letter that I have received because I want to become a nurse so badly. Both my parents are nurses & I feel that I would really thrive as a nurse as well. I shall be attending college there next fall & joining me will be my best friend, Dan Bulay.
This point in my life, my relationship with my girlfriend is at an all time high, in my opinion. There is no doubt in my mind that I can go to her for anything & everything. It all started in like March. We weren’t doing too hot. We had been arguing with each other constantly & weren’t as “lovey” as we were before. Things seemed to have changed & I began questioning whether or not she was thinking the same thing. As it turned out, she did. I wasn’t so sure up to what extent she had been thinking about it, but I was too afraid to ask in fear of what her response would be. Our moods fluctuated with the events occurring around us & I thought things would get better once my acceptance to Seton Hall rolled in. You see, she had been stressing out about what college I would attend next year because she’s a grade below me. So, like any wonderful girlfriend would, she kept getting worried that I’d go far away & even got frustrated/upset at me once I told her that I was most likely attending Richard Stockton down in south Jersey; a good 3 hours away. But once I got my acceptance to Seton Hall, I thought things would cool over & be alright. Wrong. We still argued about pointless things & we were both tired of each other. Yet, throughout all of it, I knew that we still loved each other. It was then that I realized what I had been doing. All of this had been my fault. We, both being Christians, put God before anything; even if that means before our loved ones. But I wasn’t doing so. I thought that I could solve things by myself & that I could figure this all out. Once again, I was wrong. Swallowing my pride, I did what everyone should do no matter if they’re in a relationship or not; pray to God. I began praying, asking Him what I needed to do in order to fix this, for His help within our relationship. I then knew that I had to be the man that He needed me to be in this relationship, & the man she needs for me to be in this world. It happened three days ago. I wasn’t feeling like myself still. But that’s when things changed. Out of the blue, I texted my baby during our daily conversation, interrupting the one at hand, to tell her how I felt. I told her that I need to spend more time with God. I need for us to put Him in the center of our relationship once more. I need for her to help me & nudge me whenever I’m slacking & forget to spend time with our Lord & Savior. Now, I don’t text her “Good morning” until I read my devotional at 5:45 in the morning & pray to Him asking for his protection & guidance throughout my day. I don’t begin our nightly phone calls without first reading my bible & taking time to ponder what His message is for me in the word. I don’t hang up the phone at night before one of us prays together. Now, I’d say our relationship is the strongest it’s ever been. And I’m so excited to see what it’ll be like in the future. I love you, babygirl <3
God is Good. Everything has started to look up for me. I’ve been keeping a steady schedule & getting back into the groove of things. I’ve been putting God first & everything else seems to just fall in place. I’ve even gotten word that I may be able to go to a missions trip this summer to Panama if I can raise enough money ! I’ve been talking to my great friend about it & she says that she’s super excited to go & I want to go with her ! We’ve been very good friends ever since we were little. I was glad that I got to speak with her today. Whenever we say hi, she always says that she’s “doing okay” . . But today she said she was good ! And that makes me happy. Also, I got to speak to my friend, Amanda, and she’s just adorable. She always brightens up my day because she loves hugs & I love hugs too.
Last but not least, my grand-father. Rodolfo Mazo Sr. He passed away on April 19, 2010. Sadly, that is the date of my birth as well. April 19, 1994. He is the most amazing person I have ever met. Such a strong man for God & an incredible husband & father to his family. I loved him so much. I hate the fact that he’s gone, but love the fact that I get to say every year on this date is the day when he’s celebrates his reunion with the Lord. I aspire to be just a fraction of the man he was. I cannot thank him enough for what he’s done. Because of him, my dad is the way he is & my father raised my brother & I to become the men that we are today. I love you so much, Papa Dolfo. May you continue to watch over us. I can’t wait until the day when I re-join you up in Heaven with our Lord.
-P. Mazo
So, I’m going to be going on a retreat (Kairos) for the next four days. Over that time period I shall not be allowed to use my phone. This is such a bummer. This means: I won’t be able to talk to my lovely girlfriend. I won’t be able to send her “good morning” texts like I always do. I won’t be able to ask her how her day is going or be there for her if she’s sad. All of this makes me pretty sad. I was talking to my friend, Rob, about that today & he said that he’s bummed about it too. He & his girlfriend will have their 18th month anniversary this Wednesday. Side note: Hats off to them. He’s a great dude, amazing athlete & an even smarter man. I wish the best to them & to their relationship. Anyways, back to my story, I was talking to my baby tonight & I just kept thinking about how I won’t be able to talk to her for three days. I don’t know how I’ll be able to survive that… I’m not used to not talking to her. We’ve been best friends for five years already & we’ve always never not talked. (If you can follow along with that). So, being the greatest boyfriend ever & having her on my mind 24/7/365, I decided earlier on before I left my house today that I was going to bring her flowers after I was done with my Kairos meeting at school. Because my school is about a forty minute drive away & her house is about a thirty minute drive away in the same direction, I thought that it would be in my best interest to drop off flowers at her house since I’d be close anyways. It took me like twenty minutes to get flowers for her because the stupid ShopRite didn’t have anyone managing the floral department & I had to wait mad long just to get her flowers wrapped up. Not to mention that it took me mad long to actually find her house because I was coming from a totally different place than I’m used to. I had to look up the directions on my phone & use the GPS so that I could assure myself that I wouldn’t get lost. I went through the most sketchy road ever, but I made it out alive. I was relieved once I saw familiar surroundings & then I knew that it was time to call her. Moments earlier, I had asked her what she was doing & her the same to me. I told her that I just left my school & that I was on my way home; her home, that is. *Nothing creepy here…* As I approached the driveway, I told her that I was making a quick pit stop & that I was going up some stairs. Little did she know that it was the stairs leading to her doorstep. Once she finally asked where I was or what I was doing, I told her to check outside her door to find out. There, I placed the bouquet of peach flowers. I was already a flight down the stairs when I interjected, “I love you !” to the woman of my dreams. I heard her cute little laugh as a response as she told me to come back up the stairs. She was dressed up so cute with her gigantic Giants sweatshirt over her. Welcoming me with a smile, hug & a kiss was what I was expecting & happy that I received :) She’s really the cutest thing. Her smile seemed so exuberant & from the look that was frozen in her eyes, I could tell that she liked the little surprise. Honestly, I’m just glad I got to see her. I’d do anything to make this woman happy. Literally. Anything. Unfortunately, I could only stay a couple of more seconds before I had to leave & go home. But, I will say, that those little moments before I left were very meaningful to me. I love having someone tell you that they love you first. It shows initiative & that person is putting their all out there, full-knowing that the other person can just shut them down. That shows courage. And, I love kissing my girlfriend. Teehee. I’m happy that I got to see her before I left on my retreat for four days. We’ve been having little arguments here & there, but we’re always getting through them together. Like they say in Marley & Me, “Mend not end.” And that is something that we both strongly believe in. I love you, babygirl. Like a lot, a lot <3
-P. Mazo
Yesterday, February 10, 2012, was the date that The Vow came out in theaters. It was also the date that Star Wars I: The Phantom Menace came out too. Throughout the entire week before, I was telling my girlfriend how we were going to see Star Wars. As any girl can imagine, she was less than pleased. She kept on bugging me to see The Vow & that was my plan in the first place. Time after time, repeatedly I’d tell her we weren’t going to see it & that “if you love me, than you’ll come see my movie with me.” Even though she said yes to that, I still knew that we were never going to see it together because she deserves to be able to watch a chick-flick with her boyfriend. So as we approached the ticket booth, I asked for two tickets to see The Vow. Once she laid her eyes upon the tickets, she realized they weren’t to see some Sci-Fi movie with lightsabers, The Force, native people from Tatooine, or R2-D2. Her eyes light up as she grasped my arm telling me, “No, babe, we can see Star Wars. It’s fine.” But deep down inside, I knew it was all a lie. Her face began to glow as we stepped into the theatre even though her & I both knew that it was going to be packed. Finding our seats, I don’t think she really noticed how amazing she looked as such a simple gesture of throwing her hair behind her shoulders made her radiate beauty. Only taking up about five seconds, she turned to me, smiled, produced a small laugh & then proceeded to get comfortable in her chair. Within those seconds, I’m pretty sure my heart dropped. It had occurred to me then how happy she was that we didn’t go see Star Wars & with that effortless smile of hers, it made my heart melt because I knew that she was truly happy & enjoying the moment. The movie began to play & we began to hold hands while watching the story unfold before our eyes. Moments in the film started to make both of us empathize with the characters & numerous times I found myself looking down at my baby & thinking if I could ever live my life without her. (If you haven’t seen the movie I don’t want to ruin any parts of it, so I’ll try not to speak about it too much) There were times where he’d act normally & she’d just deny him. These little moments crushed me because I know that I’d be devastated if that happened to me. This movie really made me appreciate what I have & who I was holding. The love of my life & I were again watching a movie that made us both emotional. I can’t begin to describe the feelings that I felt as I was watching this movie & looking at my baby. She was enjoying it just as much as I was. It’s the greatest sight to see; the one you love smiling back at you. Such a small gesture means so much, so comprehensible that it spoke the loveliest words that my ears have ever heard, so incredibly sexy that I’d never want her beautiful face to frown. And I promise that I will never hurt her.
I love you with all my heart, babygirl. I’m so blessed to have you in my life. I’ll love you forever & ever. This was my promise to you on August 3rd, 2011. I plan to keep that promise for as long as I still breathe. @jessicabarreto
-P. Mazo
Oh, relationships. I’m in one right now. It’s a fantastic feelings when you can call someone “yours” & know that they love you back. My girlfriend & I have been officially dating since August 3, 2011. But looking back on it, we started this journey by being best friends. This all began on November 15, 2008 ? Well, it was her birthday the day before & I hadn’t seen her in a long time. When I saw her at church that Sunday, she looked amazing. So, since I had talked to her in previous years, I decided to go up to her & say happy birthday once more. I have to admit, it was a little bit nerve-wracking for me, but I did it. Whew. That night, I began texting her asking her how her day was & how her birthday had gone. All of this continued throughout the days & weeks to come until it became regular for me to text her. Thank God I started to text her because that same girl went from: A friend - my best friend - my crush - my girlfriend & love of my life. Time really does fly. I’m so glad that her & I got to progress through four years together. We’ve been able to experience good & bad times together. But after all of it, we’ve always managed to come out on top. I’d like to thank God for that. We’re both Christians & both want to seek His name more. Now, don’t think that this is going to turn into a sermon, because it’s not. But I will just mention this, if there is anything in your life that troubles you or if you want to accept Jesus as your Lord & Savior, tell me & I’ll be more than happy to pray for you. Both me & my girlfriend will :) Anyways, there were times that were awful & we both could’ve given up. But through much prayer, things always got better after a while. It is so awesome having a girlfriend from church because I’m able to go to her & ask for us to pray together about anything that’s troubling me, her, or the both of us. And to think, all of this started when I saw a beautiful, young woman in church. I love her so much. She means the world to me.
I’m so glad that you’re in my life, baby. You’re my best friend, girlfriend, accountability partner & the one whom I could not live without. Thank you for everything. I know I don’t thank you enough. I love you, sweetie.
There’s this girl who I can gladly call my girlfriend.
There’s this girl who I love to call my “baby girl.”
There’s this girl who makes my day; everyday.
There’s this girl who never stops running throughout my mind.
There’s this girl who I’m addicted to talk to.
There’s this girl who I need to talk to everyday.
There’s this girl who gets under my skin.
There’s this girl who can get me frustrated.
There’s this girl who I fight with.
There’s this girl who I disappoint from time to time.
There’s this girl who I hurt, even though I never want to.
There’s this girl who deserves more from me.
There’s this girl who I will give my everything to.
There’s this girl who holds the key to my heart, forever.
There’s this girl who accepts me for who I am & I love her.
-P. Mazo
I don’t care how long we’ve been official or not, it feels like we’ve been together for the past three & a half years. I’m not sure if you feel the same way or not, but that’s just how I feel. I am so grateful that you have remained my friend for this long. Now, you being my girlfriend, I am determined to do whatever it takes for us to remain a couple. I hope that you know this to be true because I seriously do mean this with my entire heart. Although I may forget some things & may not always be around to see you, I’m willing to give everything I am to you while we’re together. I strongly believe that the time that we spend away from each other actually strengthens our love for one another. As I sit on different retreats reflecting on my life or resting with all of my teammates up at soccer camp, I often begin to daydream about what I’d be doing if I weren’t there. Most of the time, if not all the time, I wish to be with you instead of there. There is no other place where I’d rather be when I’m with you & that’s the only place where I’d want to be when we’re apart. It’s shame that we live so far away from each other, but it makes every time we’re with each other that much more special. I know you say that you want something more than just a physical relationship, & I do too. But, please, don’t get angry at me when I’m attempting to hold or kiss you because I just want you to know how much I love you. There are certain ways in which I constantly try to show you my love. Hugging & kissing you is one of my favorites. There is also all of those letters I have written to you, the “good morning” bbm’s, late night phone dates with closing prayers, & letting the world know how much I love you through these blogs. Babe, I love you with all my heart & I want the world to know that I am in a relationship with the most beautiful, amazing, intelligent, funny, loving, understanding & precious gift that God has ever given on this earth. Mahal kita, babe <3
-P. Mazo
